Dear .M

My Love , 

I Lost ,I lost you .and that hurts so much . 

how could  you  just go on with you life ? tell me cause i'm stuck , 

Stuck  here without  you . its not normale ,it isn't easy .  I would die for you . 

but you  just don't need me , you just don't want me . or this is what it looks like 

How could you be zo cold , so hard . If i never  learned to be so strong , 

I wouldn't  sit here and write this  to you . I just can't  understand why you left me  

why  you  left me behind . Don't you miss me ? Don't you wonder  How  I'm doing  in my  life , on school ..

I'm pretty sure  you've never left a tear  for me . I still hope that there will be a day  where you come to me and  give me a hug and  where you say   youre sorry and that you  want  me to be with  you . 

I wish you  would  call or send me a letter  just  to know  how i'm doing without you . 

Its hard for me to say  but i've never tought you  woul be my worst nightmare , 

i cant sleep , i cant think normaly , i cant enjoin the moments  of fun annymore . 

i'm always thinking , hoping , praying , for you .  but you  wont come back . 

you wont . i get it now  I mean nothing to you  , i'm not even  worth a single  tear for  you . 

 you may know that  it pretty hurts yeah '  it really  hurts , you've hurt me ...
I lost , I lost you .