Message '

I miss the evening's when we watched tv , 

sometimes I miss the time's you were yelling at us . 

sometime's i missing  having a mom cause I never had one , 

i don't blame you , and i love you verry much  but  I've got so much 

pain and grief   but I dont blame you at all . I just wished that things were gone diffrent 

But now  i have to understand  that nothing is gonna change 

I will never have you , and when i  write that or say that it really  hurt my feelings 

but i cant do anything  , i can just try to understand and to learn  live without you . ! 

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why don't you care , why  don't you love me .

youre my mom and you will stay that way 

I will never give  up on you and me , I cant say us cause there's no us , 

but you'll always be a part , you'll be the greatest missing part  of me 

iloveyou