Ice skating

Everyone has a chance to chase there dream

I have I have I have !,

Apple Macbook !

buy or not  buy ...

Don't Promise me !

-Can’t count on you most of all when I really need it 
It’s the simple things that you do, really hurt my feelings 
The more I try, the more I’m starting to see it 
This can’t work anymore, than you believe it 

Goodbye may come as a shock 
Even though I love you a lot 
I’ve given every breath I’ve got 
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe 

And how many times I gave my heart 
To how many times we fell apart 
And it equals 
A promise in the dark 
So don’t PROMISE me 

Wo bist du ,

Ich fühl mich kalt und leer 
Ich vermisse dich so sehr 
Deine Wärme ist nicht hier 
Mama du bist nicht mehr bei mir 

Vermisst du uns denn nicht
Mama - Wo bist du jetzt 
Mama - Warum bist du nicht hier 
Bei mir 
bitte sag mir gehts dir gut?! 
Es tut so weh hörst du mir zu?! 
Ich kann dich nicht verstehn 

Mama ich liebe dich so sehr
Mama - Wo bist du jetzt 
Mama - Sag mir warum - Wofür 

Wo immer du auch bist ich hoff es geht dir gut 
Es tut so weh bitte hör mir zu 


-Mama ich vermisse  dich so sehr 

Message '

I miss the evening's when we watched tv , 

sometimes I miss the time's you were yelling at us . 

sometime's i missing  having a mom cause I never had one , 

i don't blame you , and i love you verry much  but  I've got so much 

pain and grief   but I dont blame you at all . I just wished that things were gone diffrent 

But now  i have to understand  that nothing is gonna change 

I will never have you , and when i  write that or say that it really  hurt my feelings 

but i cant do anything  , i can just try to understand and to learn  live without you . ! 

-

why don't you care , why  don't you love me .

youre my mom and you will stay that way 

I will never give  up on you and me , I cant say us cause there's no us , 

but you'll always be a part , you'll be the greatest missing part  of me 

iloveyou

New Room !

My Dad build  a  new  room for me cause  we had  too little space  so he  build   a room into his paintroom ,  so  look what the result is.  its beautifull and   i'm so grateful to my dad ! his the best !

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Dear .M

My Love , 

I Lost ,I lost you .and that hurts so much . 

how could  you  just go on with you life ? tell me cause i'm stuck , 

Stuck  here without  you . its not normale ,it isn't easy .  I would die for you . 

but you  just don't need me , you just don't want me . or this is what it looks like 

How could you be zo cold , so hard . If i never  learned to be so strong , 

I wouldn't  sit here and write this  to you . I just can't  understand why you left me  

why  you  left me behind . Don't you miss me ? Don't you wonder  How  I'm doing  in my  life , on school ..

I'm pretty sure  you've never left a tear  for me . I still hope that there will be a day  where you come to me and  give me a hug and  where you say   youre sorry and that you  want  me to be with  you . 

I wish you  would  call or send me a letter  just  to know  how i'm doing without you . 

Its hard for me to say  but i've never tought you  woul be my worst nightmare , 

i cant sleep , i cant think normaly , i cant enjoin the moments  of fun annymore . 

i'm always thinking , hoping , praying , for you .  but you  wont come back . 

you wont . i get it now  I mean nothing to you  , i'm not even  worth a single  tear for  you . 

 you may know that  it pretty hurts yeah '  it really  hurts , you've hurt me ...
I lost , I lost you .